Forgetting is harder than living through it.

You don't know what it's like to wake up in the middle of the night tasting your own tears and knowing you couldn't forget them if you tried. 

 Sometimes knowing is worse than what I could have imagined. Our bodies never seem to want to run from the man with the gun. When the lights go out I can hear the breathing of monsters in my head. I want to kiss you deep but I can't escape your teeth. Feel the Bear, tear the flesh from bone. Breathing last breaths I'll say your name. 

Forrests have heard the screams of my soul and let me go. release to heaven of stars I got a plan for my future but I just have rip out the sutures. Bleeding out let the free winds play with my lungs I can finally breathe. Screaming my truths as I know them into a cold universe. No one will answer me this one question, will I be fine? 

Howl with me at the moon seems like the only thing I can do now and then I take a step forward with the past pulling me three steps back. I gotta get out of the hurricane someone, can you hear me? 

I told you I was close to the edge, teeter on the brink you held out your hand, I reached, and you pushed. I can't be held responsible for my thoughts about the death I plan for you but my heart will burn in hell with you so I guess it evens out.